needing myself

I wanna run away. Lots of things that make me wanna run away. I just need to chill and please , I really need a break. I heard lots of critical comment about me. Lots of bad talks about me.

Sometimes , I just can't take it anymore. but still i'm trying to let it go.
I feel like no one cares about me. not at all. it just like living in a box that has nothing on it. nothing. I know that no one wants to be with me. no one wants to have a happy ending with me.

I live alone. So lonely. I just need something to start it off.
I apologize to everyone. I am sorry for everything if i did anything wrong that even myself didn't know or realize. I am may quite annoying and such a troublesome. I am such a fool.

All of my friends are now run away. it seems like they don't like me and just want to stay away from me. everyday , i feel ashamed of myself. My family just loves to embarassing me in front of everyone. They always do. I feel lots of pressure and emotion just always controlling me. I cry.

Everyday , every night and every moment I cry. My heart were sad. It is breaking down and tear apart. My friends just talking back and having a great life.
I want to search a world. I want to find something in my life. Well , what can I say , this is a reality of life.
no matter what , we have to accept it.

I miss every single time of my life. What people sees on the outside of me are different with the how I felt in the inside. I am completely sad. currently break down.

Hope everything will be back to normal as soon as possible. I think i just need to have my holiday at somewhere I can relax and can think normally.